The Rollercoaster of Crushing: When Fantasy Meets Reality
Crushes. Oh, how they bring a mix of excitement and pain. All my life, I've had crushes. From the time I was in primary school to now, they’ve always been there. But there’s one thing that’s remained constant: I’ve never dated. And trust me, the journey with crushes has been nothing short of a rollercoaster.
Growing up as a girl, I never felt bold enough to tell someone I liked them. Why would I? I wasn’t the "attractive, good-looking" one, so the fear of being laughed at kept me silent. It felt safer to just admire from afar and keep my feelings hidden. Some people knew, others didn’t, and as expected, some people mocked or gossiped about it. It was tough. The real sting, though, comes when you see the person you like, someone you’ve admired in silence, dating someone else. The pain, the heartache, the feeling of not being enough—it’s all too much sometimes.
Recently, I had a big crush. This wasn’t just any crush; it was the kind that consumes you. It’s the kind where you tell yourself, “If we don’t end up together, we’ll at least be best friends or business partners.” I kept telling myself that, thinking if I spoke it into existence, maybe some part of it would come true. The power of words, right?
But reality hit a few hours ago. I saw a message that shattered my little dream bubble: the guy I liked had fallen for someone else. And here's the kicker: we’re miles apart, literally. He lives in another country, in a completely different place, with people who are stunningly beautiful. And here I am, just me, with my dreams of what could’ve been. It’s easy to feel like I don’t stand a chance, but at the same time, it’s hard to be upset. We’ve never met. It’s all just an imagined connection.
Now, I’m left with this feeling of frustration. Crushes are a funny thing. I always end up daydreaming about everything that could be. From how we’d meet, to getting engaged, to having kids and building a legacy together. It’s all so real in my head, but it’s just a fantasy. And when I step back, I realize: it’s a dream I built on something that’s not even real. It’s a fantasy where the person doesn’t even know I exist. And that hurts.
But you know what? This whole situation has taught me something. Crushes, especially the unrealistic ones, can be painful. But they’re also a part of growing up, of learning what it means to have feelings for someone and not always have them reciprocated. The truth is, it’s not about finding someone who perfectly fits into your dream. It’s about accepting that sometimes, it’s okay to have those dreams and still let them go when reality doesn’t line up.
And so, here I am. Trying to make peace with it all. Crushes are tough. They make you feel like you're living in a fairytale, only to wake up and realize that sometimes, reality doesn’t match the dream. But that's okay. It’s all part of the journey. And I know, in time, I’ll look back and laugh at how seriously I took all of this.
So, moral of the story? If you’re crushing on someone who doesn’t even know you exist, maybe it's time to focus on yourself. Life is so much bigger than a dream that may never come true. And who knows? Maybe one day, someone who actually sees you for who you are will come into your life, and it will be worth the wait.
In the meantime, let's try to laugh at ourselves. Because sometimes, all we really need is a little humor to get us through the emotional rollercoaster that is having a crush.
Until then, let’s keep crushing—on life, on our goals, and on the endless possibilities that await us!
